Happy Birthday!

November 25th, 2016

A very happy birthday, grattis på din födelsedag, my special Swedish meth prince snowflake, Joel Kinnaman!



Anxiety

November 15th, 2016

It feels like I’m currently 100% stress and 0% person. I honestly think that school has triggered an anxiety disorder on top of my bipolar. So it’s basically piling up, the mental illness. What a fucking hoot.

I have a shrink appointment tomorrow and I’m going to bring up my concerns about this. I sure hope they take me seriously. I’ve been an anxiety-ridden mess for the past three weeks and I know it’s partly due to spiraling down to a depressive episode, but really, this is just ridiculous.

I’ve taken up meditation and I find it helps at least a bit. And I’ve managed to sleep pretty well too, which helps as well, but it’s just that I don’t get enough sleep. The quality of sleep has improved very much after ditching the looney pills, but it means I don’t fall asleep so easily. I’ve found that the meditation thing helps with that too, tho. And I’ve been taking melatonine a couple of nights too just to ease the process of falling asleep. It does make me a bit foggy in the mornings, so I don’t use it too often.

The problem is I wake up in the morning and the anxiety is there almost immediately, and I have again started to worry about my health, which surely is unfounded and just a symptom of the anxiety.

This is hell and I want this to stop.



Not sorry

November 7th, 2016




No, never.



Shit on Sundays – Music cont.

October 30th, 2016

11. something you’d give ANYTHING to hear performed live Love is Blindness by U2
12. a song by an artist who’s from where you’re from (town/city/state/country) Broken by Sonata Arctica
13. a song made suddenly precious because of a special someone Dice by Finlay Quaye
14. a song made suddenly awful because of a special someone I’m sorry I really can’t think of one
15. something to BELT SHAMELESSLY/do DIVA HANDS to Bohemian Rhapsody by Queen
16. something to SCREAM ALONG to What a Day by Faith No More
17. a song for raging this is a bit of a cliché, but Break Stuff by Limp Bizkit
18. a song that demands lipsyncing into a makeshift microphone Diamonds by Rihanna
19. the last song you had stuck in your head Offer Your Light by Devin Townsend Project
20. a song you’re dying to master all the words to Dust in the Wind by Kansas, I can’t seem to remember the words no matter how hard I try



Spam comments

October 27th, 2016

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