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Thursday, February 2nd, 2017

Current sexual orientation:


fuck you farrell

Friday, February 26th, 2016


Of the lack of humanity

Monday, January 25th, 2016

Some recent events here in my native Finland have sort of re-sparked my interest in war history. I have been an avid fan of war movies and war documentaries as well as war literature since I was in my teens. I’m deeply moved by the events and destinies of people. I’m not so much interested in what battaglion did what and who was commanding which company, I’m more interested in the larger scale of things, like what events lead to the beginning of a hostility that sparked a grand-scale war but also the minuscule things, the people who actually were there, what they thought and how they survived.

But I’m getting technical here. Let’s get back to the recent events.

Now, it seems the whole of Europe is facing a crisis in the form of refugees. The amount of people on the move is huge, it’s by no means unheard of, but it’s a LOT. Here in Finland we’re used to having a around 3000-ish asylum seekers annually. Last year? 30 000+. Thirty. Thousand. That’s ten times the usual. I’m not surprised people find this problematic, even more so, because the economy is fucked, Finland is facing an economic crisis like never before on it’s own, even without an extra 30 000 people, who are in need of shelter. I’ve said this before and I will say this until I’m blue in the face if needs be: in a country of roughly 5 million people, who are largely a uniform crowd of your basic white nordics, 30 000 people from a completely different sort of culture and religious background is not a walk in the park, there are bound to be problems. You’d have to be a monumental idiot not to realise that.

Why am I suddenly writing a -let’s face it- angry rant about this, again?

In the last few weeks, or months, really, here in Finland, some knobheads have taken upon themselves to form street patrols to ‘help keep the streets safe for Finnish women and children’. This is happening in ten, maybe fifteen cities, the street patrols consisting mainly of around ten-fifteen men. Now, they claim they help to prevent crimes and if they see a crime happening, they will inform the police about it and let them handle it. It all sounds nice and good and with the police force having insufficient funding and thus being unable to patrol in the streets like before, this sounds like a good way of keeping the community a little safer.


These patrollers rave on how they want to save the Finnish women and children from getting raped in the streets. They weren’t one bit concerned before the refugee crisis ‘exploded’ on our hands. Not one bit. It seems it was ok for these people to have Finnish men raping and trolling about the streets, because, once again, they only started towards the end of last year. To top it off, the head honcho is a self-proclaimed national socialist and has posed in numerous pictures with nazi memorabilia. A good number of these patrollers have convictions of violent crimes, also towards children and women, who they claim to protect. What? Like you beat up a woman and then suddenly realise you want to protect them?

And it’s not so much even the painfully apparent double standard or the badly hidden racism, it’s the complete and utter lack of understanding of history. Of understanding even the least bit about where we, as Europeans come from. It’s been less than a hundred years since a well-documented party of seemingly good people took over Germany and it all went tits up in the most gruesome, horrible ways.

Some of the people supporting these street patrols are -of course- normal people, who are only concerned about the safety of themselves and their children and it’s fine. It’s completely ok to be worried, people can be -as we’ve noticed- shitty and horrible towards eachother. But it’s not ok to categorically just ignore all the worrying signs of this action. You have national socialists running street patrols, who are looking for people who are comitting a crime (or anything resembling one) towards a Finn, then essentially ‘preventing’ it. I can only imagine the ways this preventing will be done, since the internet forums supporting these patrols are full of people writing all kinds of disgusting violent fantasies. Do you not see the resemblance to 1930’s Germany? Is it really that hard to see the parallels?

My god, there are people wishing for concentration camps for the refugees. There are people wishing genocides on them. Like, have you people even been in a history class? This is revolting, it churns my stomach and it makes me extremely worried for my son. What kind of world will he be living in? How many times do humans need to repeat all of it’s mistakes before changing the way we think? Was all of the suffering of all the wars in the 1900’s for nothing?

Have we as a species learnt absolutely nothing? Nothing?

Languaeg of teh Stnaa

Thursday, May 21st, 2015

When I was in tech school, way back when dinosaurs roamed the Gondwanaland, we had a few Chinese students in our class. They were pretty keen on learning Finnish, up until the moment they realised it has postpositions and conjugation you wouldn’t believe. The most one of them got to was learning names for various food items, mainly because he was working in a restaurant during the summers. I remember him coming back to school one autumn and he went “Rika Rika Rika! Tonnikala!” (that’s tuna in finnish) and he couldn’t have been prouder of himself. And man, I was really proud of him too. Like it’s not easy to learn specific vocabulary in any language, let alone the names of food items.

If y’all didn’t know this already, I’m a huge language nerd and have been know to be quite capable of translating from Afrikaans to English and Latin to Finnish. (no really, afrikaans is basically just dutch and dutch is basically danish mixed with german and danish is like swedish so it’s not that big of a deal honestly). So last night I kinda zoned off and thought about how fucking awful Finnish is for a foreigner to learn. It’s virtually impossible to machine translate (this is also why googling in finnish is an absolute bitch) because of the said conjugations and the postpositions. You could argue that you can dissect the basic word, if you are handy with that sort of stuff, but then again, you’d completely miss if it’s me or you or indeed we doing and are we doing it now, in the future or yesterday.

Then you have the famous “kuusi palaa” example, in which those two words mean 9 different things and you can’t make a difference with punctuation or anything. It’s just kuusi palaa and you’re on your own in interpreting the meaning from the context. And then there’s the infamous epäjärjestelmällistyttämättömyydelläänsäkäänköhän, which translates to “not even when taking into account his/her/its way/ability/tendency of not disorganizing”. Like you try typing that and Word just throws up it’s hands like mate I got nothing, you’re on your own on this one. (nobody would actually use that word, but it’s a completely legitimate finnish word).

I guess what I’m trying to tell you guys is, if you’re thinking about learning Finnish, very best of luck with it and omg you are brave as fuck.

This is why we can’t have nice things

Saturday, November 29th, 2014

“There was a rattle behind her and with a quick inhale she snorted up the whole load. With a wide smile on her face she turned, sure to see her sister somehow miraculously risen from the grave. But it was Alex. In his grey hoodie and his dark blue jeans and black jacket and she’d never seen him looking so worried and oh how she loved him, loved every inch of his scrawny, meth-ridden body and his narrow face and the patch of hair on his chin and then it hit her like a freight train and she could taste the bitter foam in her mouth and all she heard was a high-pitched buzz and a terrified scream of Sinjin no and then everything went white, like static on television.”