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State of the Nation, mid-April

Tuesday, April 18th, 2017

Today I’m feeling sane enough to put at least something down in actual words and not just scream continuously into the void. More on that later, probably, but now:

At this very moment I am

– enjoying a well needed time on my own. Like for fuck’s sake, it’s been weeks since I’ve had the opportunity to just sit down and think about fuck-all if I so choose. Life. I swear to god.

– thinking about the upcoming task of redesigning everything up in here and how to divide shit between and my new baby,, a domain that my lovely hosting company sold me by dangling Fassbender infront of me. I know! Rude! (but i fell for it so good job guys)

– eating a veggie-satay-wok type of thingy. This is so good I think I could literally stuff 5 pounds of this down my face and still crave for more.

– drinking water. Because I need to drink it. I’m not gonna fit into my bike gear if I keep slobbing out like this.

– wearing my pajama pants and a proper, day-wear shirt. Yea, haven’t been able to bother yet. It’s only noon, so…

– listening to a few songs on repeat. Ariana Grande’s Into You for some AU smutty inspiration (you wouldn’t believe… no wait, you would, yea you would), Into the Fire by Thirteen Senses because feels and a Finnish singer-songwriter Lauri Tähkä doing a cover of one of my favourite Finnish songs, Tämä Rakkaus. I mean the original by Chisu hurts like a motherfucker, but this version? On a completely whole another level, it’s fucking devastating.

– wanting to order something online, just to cheer me up a bit, but I (thankfully) end up putting stuff in the cart and then closing the browser window.

– weather-wise it’s looking good this moment. There’s still a fuckton of snow on the ground, but temperature gauge says that won’t be the case for too long.

– feeling fucking messed-up. I mean honestly, seriously, I’m so fucked-up I don’t even have words to describe it. But me being me, when anyone asks, I’ll just go


– wondering why it isn’t possible in Finland to just sign in to a clinic for a month to just fucking recharge yourself.


Thursday, January 12th, 2017

At the moment I’m
– enjoying some youtube videos of this one Irish-German piece of meat who seems to be an absolute dork. Exhibit A.

– thinking about what to actually blog about.

– eating toast with brown sauce and cheese. Stay classy, girl!

– drinking earl grey, brewed for however many minutes the bag was forgotten in, maybe 7? No milk, no sugar, as per usual.

– wearing tracky dacks and Indiana Mouse tee (because i’ve been to the gym today and frankly i’m too bloody lazy to change)

– listening to a lecture about blasting in mines. When I say ‘listening’ I mean I can hear the guy rambling, but… I can’t be arsed, even if it’s quite interesting. I’m a bad student. Shame on me.

– wanting for it to be tomorrow already. Because Assassin’s Creed with mum and sweets. Yas.

– weather-wise it’s fucking atrocious in here. Snowing sideways. Ew.

– feeling not too stressed about school. It is the first lecture tho, so brace yourselves.

– wondering if I should change planners from my Domino to my Kikki.K teal. I probably should.


Thursday, January 5th, 2017

Current sexual orientation: Michael Fassbender doing a fancy roly-poly


Somebody please put me out of my misery.

It’s beginning to…

Tuesday, December 13th, 2016

Well ho-ho-hold the fuck up, it seems like it’s almost time for the merriest, cheeriest time of the year.

And to think I’m actually up to speed. Yes I know, shock! horror! stop the press! and all that. I’ve put up our tiny little tree a week ago, I’ve put up all the decorations I’m going to and all I need to worry at the moment is a) whether I get my card list straight in time, b) if I can be bothered to get people gifts and c) who is going to bring what on the table for Christmas Eve, because that’s the day we celebrate the most here in Finland.

Good thing is we’ve sorted out the where and how many of it all, but now to make a menu and appoint everyone in charge of their bit. I’m going to be in charge of the main dish and I guess cheese (all the cheese, to meeee!) and mom just has to make the carrot casserole, otherwise it’s not going to be any type of Christmas in my household. The rest is still open. But for once I was thinking we really shouldn’t overdo it. I mean I can’t stomach the idea of having to eat Christmas food for weeks on end. No. So everything in moderation. (watch me heating up leftovers in january)

So Christmas is looking fine this year, even tho I’ve had a bit of a rough patch mentally recently, but I’m not going to spoil this post talking about that.


Today pt. 1

Thursday, March 24th, 2016

Today I’ve been
– enjoying a gruelling workout that made me sweaty as fuck but I don’t care, I love it.

– thinking about how finally there’s some justice in the world, Radovan Karadzic got a 40 year sentence for war crimes. If that’s not something to bring back some faith in The Hague criminal tribune, I don’t know what is.

– eating some pancake and lasagna. I like both very much.

– drinking the weirdest concoction of two teas (not by my own choice tho). It was vile. I hope I never have to endure such thing again.

– wearing my workout pants and top. The top is bright pink and I don’t give two fucks if I look like a cupcake in it.

– listening to Zeljko Joksimovic, after the longest break ever. I don’t know why I have been without him. God, that man can sing like whoa.

– wanting to get my order from Kikki.K, but alas the customs held it for one day too long and now I have to wait until after Easter to get it. Booo!

– weather-wise content. Other than there’s a light snowfall and I don’t want ANY MORE of that white shite.

– feeling quite good about myself, for a change. I think getting my arse up and to the gym makes a fuckton of difference in my moods.

– wondering how to tell a friend I’m worried about them. In a nice way, I only know dick ways.