Archive for February, 2013


Monday, February 25th, 2013

I’ve got 26 pages of text and I’m asdfghjkl Rainne and Daryl

A new kind of drug

Saturday, February 23rd, 2013

So I went to the shrink a couple of days ago and she started me on this another pill. I’m not sure yet if it will work, as I’m still taking a small dose which will gradually be upped to a normal dose. These pills cost me a fucking fortune to buy as I’m not yet entitled to any health coverage. And because they cost me a load I’m pretty damn afraid that these either won’t work and I’ve bought them for nothing or that they give me some serious side effects like the face twitches the last pills did and I need to stop taking them like two pills into the package. This sucks donkey dick to be honest.

Also I’ve now gotten the official diagnosis. It’s not hypomania as I was sort of hoping, it’s a full on bi polar disorder. Not quite sure how to take this yet. I have a mental illness. I know many do, but it’s still somewhat confusing.

Laminated List, pt 3

Thursday, February 21st, 2013

A more recent addition to the list, but quickly becoming my number one obsession. For the second time. It happened to me when I watched The Boondock Saints the first time and it happened again about six months ago. This time because of tumblr and The Walking Dead. That series is marvellous and it will destroy you emotionally because of all the feels. And the rugged redneck that is Daryl Dixon has become my favourite character. Portrayed by Norman Reedus, who is so smoking hot it makes my ovaries explode. Dat grey in his beard, ReedusFetish.

Deja vu

Wednesday, February 20th, 2013

When I was putting the kettle on this morning, I reached for something from the cupboard and had the most terrible dejavu -feel. I can’t remember what it was, but it was overwhelming. I had to swallow hard for a minute or maybe more, because it didn’t want to go away or stop. There were just a flood of things that popped into mind and everything just seemd like I had been there, or heard that before. In a very real way. After that the whole day has been like chasing after a dream. I get a sense of familiar from here and there, I seem to remember a dream where this or that was said or done. It’s terrifying.

I basically know what causes dejavus, the delay between eyes, conscious mind and subconscious mind. But it doesn’t make it any less stomach-turning. I’ve had only a few of those really really scary moments in my entire life, but I can tell you, when it happens, it stays in the mind a long time.

Ramble, pt. 3245

Tuesday, February 19th, 2013

There may come a day when I stop posting stupid shit, but it is not this day. So to make this Monday even more unbearable, here’s ten utterly useless facts about me.

– I was born on a Wednesday. I had to check this from a calendar, cuz Mom doesn’t remember. She does remember the date tho.
– When I was a kid I had a huge crush on Jayce from Jayce and the Wheeled Warriors. Also I had a crush on K.I.T.T. from Knight Rider. Yes, it’s a car, what’s your point? Later weird crushes include Solid Snake from Metal Gear Solid 2.
– I once stole a car when I was a teen.
– I’m the clumsiest person you can imagine. I break stuff and bump into everything you can possibly bump into and also stuff you cannot fathom how anyone would bump into. I do this so enthusiastically that I have several small to medium bruises at all times. I’ve been like this since childhood which is why Mom calls me the Clumsy Kid.
– I love beer. I don’t like the taste of alcohol so I’m not a drinks person, but beer. Man I could drink it by gallons. It’s not very adult of me, but when I go out with mates I tend to get shit-faced. Don’t worry tho, they usually are equally shit-faced.
– I love fictional characters more than real people. I also value animals over humans so much it’s not even funny anymore.
– I’m bi-polar.
– I was happily single for ten years before I started going out with the man who is now my spousal unit. He swept me off my feet by playing Megadeth’s Symphony for Destruction with his bass guitar. About 37 seconds into the song I knew I couldn’t live without him. And I don’t need to.
– I consider myself very lucky in my life. I’ve got a good husband, a job at the moment and I’m healthy.
– I’ve named my turtles Leroy and Nixon even tho they are girls.