Archive for June, 2013

It’s not good

Tuesday, June 11th, 2013

I was out walking today, as my mind is racing something terrible and I’m barely able to manage eating, let alone some everyday tasks, like emptying the dishwasher. I was listening to my angst -playlist on my iPhone and this guy walks towards me. And as he’s approaching I recognize him to be this weird dude who has stabbed like three guys to death and was realeased from jail like a year ago. And I know he has a habit of just attacking like random people. I was so fucking afraid when we passed eachother that I don’t think I’ve ever been. As he passed me and I passed him, I kept thinking he’d turn around and pull out a knife and stick it in my back.

And I kept thinking it might be a relief.

Writing

Thursday, June 6th, 2013

So I was supposed to be writing smut but this turned out to be something else and I can’t even.

She caught his eyes and saw in them the same aching she was feeling. She couldn’t fight back the tears that burst out from her eyes seeing him hurt just like she did. At that moment the first firework shot up and blew into millions of white sparkles and she instinctively turned her head to the now alit sky. She felt tears roll down her cheeks and suddenly she felt a warm hand touching her fingers, stroking them gently. She knew it was him, he was trying to hold her hand and it hurt so bad she felt like dying. She took his hand in hers, hoping that her man wouldn’t notice her slight movement. He interlocked his fingers with hers and squeezed her hand in the light of the July 4th fireworks and she knew just as well as he, that they could never be and that hurt them both so much it was almost unbearable.

Manic

Monday, June 3rd, 2013

I’ve felt like ten billion bucks for the last two days and I’m not coming down u guise. I’m listening to Tron: Legacy soundtrack and fic writing like there’s no tomorrow this is the best feeling in the world