Archive for December, 2013

no

Monday, December 30th, 2013

stop doing it
it’s not right

Shit on Sundays – pt 235

Sunday, December 29th, 2013

1. selfie

2. what would you name your future kids? I kinda have a name, but I don’t want to say it, because you’ll think I’m stupid. Which I no doubt am, mind you.
3. do you miss anyone? Yea, my sister.
4. what are you looking forward to? I don’t know, a trip to London.
5. is there anyone who can always make you smile? I’m struggling here, but I guess yes. At least most of the times.
6. is it hard for you to get over someone? Not generally. It depends.
7. what was your life like last year? Boring, to sum it up. Day in day out.
8. have you ever cried because you were so annoyed? Yes. It’s fucking annoying to be so annoyed that you’ll weep.
9. who did you last see in person? My husband. Before that I think some random people at the shops.
10. are you good at hiding your feelings? Not really good at all, no.
11. are you listening to music right now? Not at the moment.
12. what is something you want right now? A brew. Jesus fuck but I’d kill for a cuppa. As per usual.
13. how do you feel right now? Kinda tired. It’s 4.30 in the morning and I should really be in bed. (i am queuing this one, so stfu)
14. when was the last time someone of the opposite sex hugged you? Earlier today.
15. personality description. Oh wow. Awkward and antisocial.
16. have you ever wanted to tell someone something but you didn’t? Yes, plenty of times.
17. opinion on insecurities. On my own or someone else’s? I think they can be worked on, but not by force.
18. do you miss how things were a year ago? Not really, no.
19. have you ever been to New York? No, but I’d like to.
20. what is your favourite song at the moment? Chicane – Come Tomorrow, hands down.
21. age and birthday? 35, October 18th
22. description of crush.

23. fear(s). heights, spiders, dying in a fire
24. height. 175 cm, is about 5’9″ish
25. role model. I don’t really know if I have any specific role model.
26. idol(s). Bono for reasons, Tom Hiddleston for reasons
27. things i hate. vomiting, winter, boiled cabbage.
28. i’ll love you if… you are nice to me.
29. favourite film(s). Spy Game and The LoTR trilogy.
30. favourite tv show(s). The Walking Dead, QI.
31. 3 random facts. I make good biscuits, I’m a good driver and I love Indian food.
32. are your friends mainly girls or guys? At this point I think it’s like 50/50.
33. something you want to learn. To play the didgeridoo.
34. most embarrassing moment. Oh wow. I don’t know, I’ve been traumatized by this one time the mean girls of my school found out about my crush on this boy and gave me a right hell for it.
35. favourite subject. At school? English.
36. 3 dreams you want to fulfill? Visiting New York, living in London (i’m not too specific about it, london-ish is good) and owning a pick-up truck.
37. favourite actor/actress. Tom Hiddleston/Cate Blanchett
38. favourite comedian(s). David Mitchell and Billy Connolly.
39. favourite sport(s). I like watching hockey.
40. favourite memory. When I got my first My Little Pony Baby, Baby Firefly. It was a magical moment.
41. relationship status. Married.
42. favourite book(s). The Stand by Stephen King and LoTR by J.R.R. Tolkien.
43. favourite song ever. Heartland by U2.
44. age you get mistaken for. About 28-ish.
45. how you found out about your idol. Found out initially I guess from tumblr, then I had this weird dream (here, read all about it)
46. what my last text message says. Sent: “Pls place scruff face here”. Received: “No problem madame ;)”
47. turn ons. good vocabulary, flirting, eye-fucking.


(stop it, you insufferable man)

48. turn offs. Being a drunk twat.
49. where i want to be right now. London. Seriously, I could just go there right now and be happy.
50. favourite picture of your idol. idk maybe this one?

51. starsign. Libra.
52. something i’m talented at. Singing and languages.
53. 5 things that make me happy. Puppies, my husband, pizza, a cuppa and a pint of Guinness.
54. something that’s worrying me at the moment. My mental disorder getting worse and indeed out of hand.
55. tumblr friends. Few and far apart, but I like it that way.
56. favourite food(s). Indian. Lasagna. Pizza!
57. favourite animal(s). Dogs, turtles, all tiny furries.
58. description of my best friend. She’s a river in a time of dryness, a harbour in a tempest.

For the shitty days

Friday, December 27th, 2013

Look, I’m the first one to admit that I’m a horny fangirl. But other than that I do appreciate the talent of one Mr. Hiddleston. Seriously, he’s not just a pretty face, he’s a properly talented actor. And because the talent, his face, his impeccable sense of style and his unbelievable ability to eye-fuck aren’t enough, there are these things:

I am an optimist. I choose to be. There is a lot of darkness in our world, there is a lot of pain and you can either choose to see that or you can choose to see the joy. If you try to respond positively to the world, you’ll spend your time better.

Sometimes I just don’t know whether to punch him in the face or give him a hug.

I just needed to have this in here too, where I can always find it.

Ghosts

Tuesday, December 24th, 2013

It’s 5.30 am in the morning. Dad’s over at us spending the holidays. Why am I up? Here’s a story for you, children.

I go to bed at like maybe 11.30 pm and sleep until 3-ish. Then I wake up, stay in bed thinking all this will pass and I’ll get back to sleep. I wait for an hour, ending up casually internetting with the phone. The sleeping, it’s not happening. So I get up and go for the bathroom and what do I find? My dad, meant to be sleeping downstairs on a guest bed is up, telling me he’s been up for like and hour. I’m like yea, me too. I go to the bathroom (let me just tell you, the floorboards are not our friends tonight. the creaking is something terrible) and decide to give the sleep one more go.

Yea, not happening. So I get up and make myself a cuppa. Dad follows me to the kitchen, to do the exact same thing. A cuppa is always, always a good idea.

And here we are, two deranged ghosts hovering about the premises with a teacup in our hand. One with a bipolar disorder and one with PTSD (he says it isn’t it but i know better), both unwilling to give in on the disorder, both unable to sleep.

Monday, December 23rd, 2013

you know what?

it does help. physical pain takes away the edge on the mental one.

i don’t know if this is a good thing.

i think i need help.