Archive for February, 2017

Maladaptive daydreamer

Sunday, February 19th, 2017

Maladaptive daydreaming or excessive daydreaming is a psychological concept to describe an extensive fantasy activity that replaces human interaction and/or interferes with academic, interpersonal, or vocational functioning.

Maladaptive daydreamers may also experience trouble completing routine tasks or going to sleep, due to their desire to continue daydreaming. Oftentimes while maladaptive daydreamers are daydreaming, they will whisper, talk, make facial expressions, or do some sort of repetitive movement, such as pacing.

Maladaptive daydreamers can spend hours simply daydreaming. They may have elaborate fantasies within their minds, often comparable to a complete novel or movie. Many have more than one fantasy in their mind, each with its own characters, setting, plots, etc. Maladaptive daydreamers may become emotionally attached to their characters as well, though they know the characters are not real.

Now, until very recently I had no clue that this was actually considered as an actual psychological condition, so to speak. I thought this was something that people did. People who write. People like me.

I mean I’ve always worked that way when writing. I have a very precise mental image of the surroundings, the characters and dialogue. I tend to have conversations in my head that I go through, sometimes being one of the characters, and other times more than one. Like I switch roles all the time and go through the actual conversation that I’m later going to write. I make faces a lot when I write, or when I’m just thinking about writing. And yes there are many AU’s going on in my head at any given time, for many different storylines (i call them storylines, i guess they may as well be considered daydreams) and I do tend to get emotionally attached to my characters. Also the part about having trouble to complete routine tasks or going to sleep, because of wanting to continue the story (or fantasy)? All true.

I know there’s a difference between plotting and daydreaming in a very defining level, which is that one is more of a fantasy about oneself in an AU, and the other is basically making up characters and then sort of following their story arch. But it’s intriguing to think about the similarities. I sure spend a lot of time talking to my imaginary characters and prefer their company more often than actual people. And I sort of think that most writers add some of their own qualities to their characters, because why not, you know how a person that has this or that quality acts or thinks, because you have that in you. I don’t mean making a 2.0 (mary sue) version of you, but just putting in bits and pieces of yourself. Which kind of makes the story a personal fantasy of sorts.

So really, is there a difference between a maladaptive daydreamer and a writer such as myself?

We just don’t know.

Assassin’s Creed

Sunday, February 5th, 2017

Ok. I think I’m finally calmed down about the film a bit, so I can write something about it. Like in a reasonable manner.

Let me just say right at the beginning, that I absolutely fucking loved it. It’s one of my favourite films ever, right there with Spy Game and Rogue One (goddamnit but Rogue One was a damn good film too). I have seen it twice now and I can’t wait for the blu-ray to come out so I can watch it maybe ten times more.

I have never played any of the Assassin’s Creed games, but let me tell you after this film I want to. So good job Ubisoft, you’ve advertised (succesfully) your game with 125 million dollars. The plot is simple enough, basically, because you have your good guys against the bad guys. Or you’d think so. I’m still not quite convinced the Assassins are exactly the good guys. They are relatively, compared to the Templars, but like, are they really? I’m not getting into the synopsis very much, because that’s what imdb is for, or any serious review. I’m just here to focus on the experience.

The film is very nicely shot, absolutely beautiful camera work and I loved the colours and the general look. Especially so considering that the scenes that happened in present day have completely different visual look than the scenes in the past. I’m a visual person, so these things mean a lot to me, I feel like in this film the concept was very well thought through (too right it should too, because haven’t they been developing this film for like ages?). The action sequences were cut in a bit of a mess to my taste, I could’ve enjoyed longer shots, but basically they looked good. I loved how they set Callum against Aguilar.

Which brings me to the bleeding effect scenes. Damn damn damn. Absolutely fucking beautiful. I was basically just staring (both times) and trying not to scream because just, honestly. I loved how the regression scenes were set up, seeing Callum act out what Aguilar was doing in the Animus arm (i hear the arm thing isn’t in the games, but will be from now on). I know there was a lot of cgi, but it sort of didn’t seem so obvious. Ugh, I could go on and on about this, I mean it was just genious.

The music. Oh my frigging god, Jed Kurzel has done a marvellous job with the score. It fitted the film perfectly. I’m a big fan of soundtracks in general, I’m particularly a fan of Harry Gregson-Williams, because he has the ability to really bring the last oomph to the film. But let me tell you, Jed Kurzel is right on par with this one and I’m kind of excited to see the Macbeth he’s scored. I hear that one is a masterpiece, the film and all.

Of course, there were some not so great things as well, I’m not completely biased (well i am, but deal with it). I could’ve used maybe a little more info on how the damn apple of Eden worked. Like, it contains the free will of people, but how does it fucking work? Throughout the film it was just a ball of steel and then in the last-ish scene it suddenly starts emitting light and being all magical? Wat? Also, however magnificent the regression scenes of the inquisition were, they kind of didn’t move the plot forward a great deal. Except for the last part. Don’t get me wrong, I loved that they were in it, and yes they brought more light to the Assassins (shout out for making the scenes in Spanish! good choice!), but they were more there to beef the whole thing up and as such I would’ve maybe appreciated more storytelling than pure action. Again, not really complaining, but maybe consider this for the sequel.

Because there will be a sequel, won’t there? Please?

Anyway, the cast was great, I loved seeing Brendan Gleeson and Jeremy Irons (however creepy he is in real life, he’s a terrific actor) and ayy, my man Matias Varela was there too. Fassbender was very good as Callum Lynch and even better as Aguilar de Nerha, and even tho I thought taking off his shirt for the last regression bit was a bit gratuitous, I’m not complaining. I would be stupid to. He is absolutely ripped in this film and any excuse to show that off is a good excuse.

But yeah. Assassin’s Creed, very good film, very entertaining, didn’t have a forced romantic subplot (THANK), good fight scenes, some nerdy sci-fi and Michael Fassbender. Very good, I’ll give it 4 out of 5 stars. Get your hands on the blu-ray when it comes out, or better yet, catch it in cinemas if you still have the chance.


Thursday, February 2nd, 2017

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